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The universe does listen
For a long time now my soap box has been how we as Gay Men and women, Kinky people without children, or Kinky people who have children who are in disagreement with our lifestyles and do not respect our wishes, need to make assurances for our geriatric years beyond 401Ks. I’ve seen gay men loose their rights as individuals to keep choice of lifestyle and their partners loose the right to make decisions in the life of their greatest investment. I’ve seen brutal attempts against heterosexual couples to have their children taken away and their right so make personal decisions taken away because they didn’t fit the ‘norm’. I’ve seen far too many sub-cultural groups spend the end phase of their lives in a hell that I wouldn’t wish on any living creature all because in the end, we only have the rights we fight for.

You’ve all heard my psychic babble about my first visit to Minnesota and the retirement home across from the cornfield, so I won’t force you through it again. I’ve finished my CNA training and I’ve been waiting on my state exams. What I’ve been doing in the mean time is gathering as much education as I can to give me as secure as a hold as I can get in my new field. Right now I’m finishing Hospice training being offered for free by Christopher house. All they are asking in exchange is that I in teach 4 classes suited to the group of my choice.

Anybody wanna guess which groups I picked?
Gay & Lesbian and The kinky community.

The universe does listen. For my house, for my friends, for the people I choose to act as friend and caregiver. I’ve been asking for away to get my point across that would get the people I love to deal with an issues that as a nation we are taught to fear. Death and aging. It wasn’t what I thought I was going to learn. I though they were going to teach me to be a better healthcare worker. But Hospice healthcare is about dying with comfort and dignity. I finish the course on Saturday. Joel has already agreed to help be with my syllabus both in form and pointing it at the subculture I choose to work with. I’m finishing the House Hyena Charter and the house icon. I’ve also been working on a project I call the CPC , Crisis Prevention Center for dealing with Climate emergencies after having dealt with Katrina, Allison, Alicia, Ike, and Rita. I thought I was at the end of my run. Now I’m going to pour myself into a project very close to my heart.

I hope my friends and family are ready.

:::Dilemma:::
I'm helping my mother to find an independent living institution in Houston. The rules and short comings of doing so I have a list of. However a bit of wisdom was given to me and I don't know how to check up on it. It seems that the corporations that run these institutions can either have a bad track record or be on the point of failure.

How does one go about checking the financial stability of a company?

Current Mood: thoughtful
Current Music: Sherl Crow - Soak up the Sun

8 years today...
and no end in sight.

Joel and I will celebrate eight years together this evening. We met at a leather event (the last Drummer contest in 2000). Of course I didn't want to go. A friend that's been on my mind a lot lately bugged me almost to the point of getting punched in the face. He wanted me to go cook for the event as neither one of us cared for eating in the bar and he knew what my standards were. I never dreamed when I ran into Joel in that bar looking like a slut on the make that eight years later we'd still be together.

But in less than 24 hours I was captured by this man even though I didn't know at the time what I wanted to do with him other than have sex. Joel is the first to admit that he was looking for a no strings attached good time and wanted nothing to do with a relationship at the time. We laid in bed together for 4 days. Those days turned into months and months turned into years. Some where in there we became apart of each other and here we are.

Tonight we're going to Peony for dinner (its the restaurant we held Midian in). We've gone their every year except one for our anniversary. Then we're going to see Beverly Hills Chihuahua. Who knows, he might even get some.

A Message from Mr. John Cleese
Joel forwarded me this from his mentor.
I thought you guys might enjoy it
Its behind a cut because its so large.

( The Message )

A small thing but still... beautiful.
I had a Pakistani friend in the late seventies early eighties who was gay like myself but it was so much harder for him. He'd watched several other middle eastern men and women have their lives devastated and sometimes taken by being outed. You think it was hard being black or white in a small town or rural area in the 80's being gay? Not compared to someone in a culture that is a) unpermissible of any deviance to the point in the country of origin it is still punishable by death or stoning b) are in a foreign country and not accepted well to start out with (I still see horrifying atrocities against Middle Eastern and Asian peoples by blacks and Hispanics who claim they themselves are prejudiced against) and c) are in a subculture that hates itself unless you are white, beautiful and rich.

Yes things have changed some in the last 20 years. But when I last saw Aki he was on his way into a prearranged marriage and into a life he did not want nor thought he could ever escape. I helped him go on a week binge of unscrupulous sex, debauchery,and carnal appetite that would shame most crack whores. We fucked each other and anything that wasn't nailed down twice for assurance over the course of about 10 days. He was determined to do the right thing and not shame his family by sacrificing himself for the sake of traditional ideals. He said no matter how much the world might change it was too late for him. He would have children and responsibilities that he would never be free of, and would honor always. I cried so hard for him the last time he walked away from me. I never saw him again.

Now its 20 somethin' years later and the world has moved on. Homosexuality is still punishable by death in the Middle East depending on where you are. Many men and women still suffer horrible fates and live coveted lives (lies) they cannot escape. But then I read blogs of young men and women from all over the world and in places all over this country who take fate in their own hands and live lives that don't know true fear or the ugliness of persecution. I see young Hindi, Paki, African, Black and White, Chinese and Japanese people on Craig's list, on adult personals, hosting sex parties, making porn and never know that just 10 years before such acts could have cost them their lives from ignorance....

Yeah you can still be in the wrong place at the wrong time but that is never going to change. But when you have a menage' toi between a black boy, an Indian-asian and a Chinese boy and their advertising for a 2-day gay sex party and their using their beautiful faces in the ad....

Its a small thing, but beautiful.

We interrupt your regular program to bring you this important message
Lanie has been trying to smoke!
(Yes I'm telling)

She tried to bulldoze

boy_jim into giving her a cigarette and then threatened to stop at the store and buy a pack

"GIT HER!!!

Now Pay attention
I said in an earlier post that I had a premonition the hurricane we had to watch out for would not be a girl

Its Gustov.

From Louisiana, Texas....

Get ready now and get out of the way.

If someone needs an inland place to stay my house is open.

This is going to be a mean nasty boy

Current Mood: Alert

Kinkymon - gotta try Em all!!

Devikusa

This is an unassuming Kinkymon that fires a bolt of Poly at its competitors. Its easy to find this Kinkymon, just look for the orgy.

This kinkymon's powers include: Daisychain, circle of Fist, and everybody come get some.

Its good to be Kinkymon
That's Pokemon for mature adults

Kinkymon - gotta try Em all!!

What's your favorite Kinkymon!

Paras

-this kinkymon is considered a demonic infestation. Arriving in the thousands this kinkymon delivers a poisonous bite that causes its victim to become infested with uncontrolled impulses to engage in deviant sado-masachistic behavior. After more than three sustained bites the victim breaks out in fetishware that suits the deviant it becomes. The infected immediately become protective of Paras and use enemies as bottoms for their sadistic plaesures.

This kinkymon's powers include: Pussy on fire, unstoppable blowjob, neon flogging, nipple clamps of power.

Its good to be Kinkymon
That's Pokemon for mature adults

Question for the Dallas folks
Does anyone know where I can shop for Men's silver earrings while I'm in Dallas? All my internet searches take me to either diamond Jewelry or sports jewelry (tacky crap with team logos). What I'm looking for is quality solid sterling silver earrings likened unto whoops, pirate style or Tribal patterned. I've got 4 holes to fill and I'll have a complete collection again and can get my hair cut.

Thanks
Demon

God is dead
begin the terror of the machine...

http://www.nikkor2d2.com/

...some people will cease to have sex from the moment it gets in their possession.

oh BTW....
Tristan Taormino has explained women's attraction to gay porn.
Gotta love it!

Thought you might like to read it: http://www.villagevoice.com/people/0820,girls-love-gay-m,440933,24.html

Battle Cry?
Mine is what its always been....

"OHANA"

Change of Heart
This negative energy had really started to get to me.
In an effort to keep as much out as possible I had really cut myself off. Gotten really gray. But as usual the power of Ohana turned that around.

In the last few days I've talked with a great deal of my leather sisters. And then this morning I got a phone call from

bond_ms_bond telling all about her trip and how she used the power of Ohana to shield her from the negative and then just like that all at once it went from being a stone in my heart to a scene outside my window once more.

I am really saddened by anyone who doesn't know of or have never felt this power. Even more so the person that does not allow it into their life. These are the dark days of existence. The only light that shines in this darkness is the love we have between us. And it grows when it is shared.

One light breaks up the darkness, many turn it into day.
It is the light of day that makes the night so sweet.
This I will try and keep with me.

I got a funny feeling
Ever sense I woke up this morning I've been just this side of being afraid. The neighbors I talked to said that their cats were acting funny and climbing the walls. Thats how I feel.

The knowledge is just as sure in my head as I know my own name. This is an energy coming through. I think it makes bad things happen.

No it makes the possibility of bad things, very bad things more probable. People will be hurt today in by a means I can't quite comprehend. This is a day to be careful.

I don't like the way this energy is coming over me. It makes me want to get under something and stop functioning.

I think my funny feeling is actually fear.
But fear of what I'm not exactly sure of.
This is a good day for very bad things.

I'm gonna get up and go work outside now.
Fear is the mind killer.
I can't afford to stew in it and let it consume me.
Something is definately wrong.